I felt confident enough in my ability, but also in who I was , I didn’t feel like i was being held down by a need to only play likeable people- Saorise Ronan
Positively Purging-I welcome your feedbacks in the comments and your likes and passing the real life wisdom on to others as I embark on this new venture of “positively purging“, as I know each of these pieces represents something…
I’m not close to my 88-year-old mother. For all of my life we have not gotten along. I never fit into her “mold” for me. I have made the decision not to have any type of communication with her yet again for eight years now. I’m better without her and her melodramatics in my life. I feel that it’s hypocritical of me to attend her service when she does pass. My siblings disagree. That is my decision. I have no “wonderful” memories to reflect on. My goodbye is my goodbye. Your thoughts, please. – Distant Daughter
Dear Daughter: This is your decision. Your siblings are operating inside their own narratives and relationships with your mother. They may want – or even think they need – you to co-sign their version of events in order to properly grieve. That isn’t the case. You don’t have to create wonderful memories where there weren’t any. And your memories, good or bad, don’t change their memories.
Sometimes, especially when a family member dies, we feel that we need everyone to gather around one shared story of a life. When family members don’t, it can create conflict that’s often exacerbated by grief.
Your siblings will need to work on releasing you from that expectation. In turn, try to release them from needing to see or affirm the story you’re in. You don’t have to get dragged into debate, especially before your mother’s death. So, if and when the subject comes up, respectfully but firmly decline to engage.
Even though, as you write, your goodbye is your goodbye, I’d recommend talking about the feelings you have now with someone you trust and who can listen to your truth without judgment or demand. A therapist will help you sort out the relationship, and its impact, and make a plan for healing moving forward. But it’s also helpful to lean on friends and other loved ones as you navigate this period and any conversations that pop up with your siblings.
Love freely, love deeply, love purely. Love yourself the way you always wanted to be loved, and love others the same way. Love well, love often. Love all the earth has to offer for there is beauty in everything. Love something larger than yourself. Call it God, call it nature. Call it the divine. Just love for you our love deeply today.
Positively Purging-I welcome your feedbacks in the comments and your likes and passing the real-life wisdom on to others as I embark on this new venture of “positively purging”, as I know each of these pieces represents something…
This one is for the crafty girlies. Gather old magazines, colored paper, glitter, fabric clippings, gel pens, paints, or whatever makes you feel warm and fuzzy, and prepare to get creative. Invite friends over, throw on a classic 2000s bestie film, and pull out the snacks, glue sticks, and scissors. I like setting an intention for my collages rather than vision boarding, which requires me to think long and hard about my “vision” for the future. The way my anxiety is set up, that can feel more like work than fun. Instead of envisioning things you want to attain, think about how you want to feel in your friendships and make a visual representation that will remind you whenever you look at it.
Positively Purging–I welcome your feedbacks in the comments and your likes and passing the real life wisdom on to others as I embark on this new venture of “positively purging”, as I know each of these pieces represents something…
